Poland

 Oct 25 (Sat) Explanation of being single- no one is forced to understand your sorrow or share your joy. Finally. ----------------------------------------------------------- When I saw the reason for my patterns, I felt sorry for myself. Why I always change jobs on and off; why I cannot stay longer; why I pull and push in a relationship. It is just that I know why I became the present me. I feel sorry for myself genuinely.  Last night, I was filled with light resentment. Again, I diverted the blame to my parents, the younger version. Then, when we walked on the street tonight, I just realized that they are really trying their best to love me with their limitations (either on perception or capability). How come I blame them?  I am the person who knows how to love myself. Please remember that I should clean up inner conflicts to really fix myself before entering a new relationship. I can handle friendship easily with polite distance. That is me, sadly. like a product work i...

 Oct 24 (Fri) : You probably do not need to figure out if you are "over him" to make this decision. You need to figure out if continuing this work serves YOU, practically and emotionally, right now.  : The weight you have been carrying is not from the hustle, or him, or even your job-hopping pattern. It is from the constant self-judgment and blame.  : You have been exhausting yourself trying to be "normal" instead of accepting your own rhythm.  What kind of work exists that celebrates rather than punishes my need for variety? ------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------ Self-stigma: when I adopt society's negative view of a trait and turn it against myself. "Your trait is not a problem. The self-blame is the problem." "You are not broken- you might just be ahead of the curve, or wired differently." : What would it feel like to accept that you are someone who needs variety in work, and that is just...okay? N...