Weighing

Mar 10, 2025 (Mon)

Probably not discussing this on weekdays. It ruins his mood or mine. He cannot focus on work. 

He always said the relationship is for two people. If there is anything wrong, we two should discuss it first instead of talking with others. At first, it is a mature gesture for me. Then it becomes a knot. I found no one to talk to. Gradually, our personality difference starts surfacing.

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His words or sentences make me sober.

: I love you with boundaries maturity and growth. This is the person I want to be with. 

: That is not the real me. What you are saying is you want a perfect girl. Sorry, it is not the whole me. 

: You need to love yourself first.

: I love myself and then I will not stay here. As I have said before, I never want an LDR.

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I still like him. Gotta force myself not to check his messages on and off. 

Archive- unarchive. Archive- unarchive. Archive- unarchive

I told him before- if I want to leave please try your best to keep me. Sometimes, I am just too hopeless to see the future. Then I want to step out of the dead loop asap. 

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He has already tried his best to love me and show his care, affection. 

If it is still not enough for me or does not resolve the deeper need like the sense of security, then it may be time to let go fully. 

I like or even love him (u can say so). But I want to stop all of this. 

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Let's see any progress in months. 


Love yourself, 

Vi


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  1. Vien2025年3月10日 清晨7:55

    : 他可能只想愛一個「適合他當下狀態的人」，而不是為了你去改變自己的生活

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