Last Letter About Us

Mar 31, 2025 (Mon)

We met each other at the beginning of Jan. 

He confessed his feelings on Jan 13, the date we both agreed upon. 

He said that he wanted a little solitude on Mar 30, when I tried the last time. 

Some red flags I saw but to let them sit aside. 

- He said that we could certainly come back to Palm Springs but we never did. He always chooses his friend over me. Woke me up to answer his best friend's question. It is disrespectful to wake up someone if they fall asleep.  

- He could not define what we are at the very beginning. I should set my boundaries or even have more courage to choose FWB. Ironic and ridiculous. 

He wants emotional connection, sex, and accompany, but doesn't want to bear any responsibility. What's more, we do not share a common future. I try to share my future vision and invite him to join. Present all my cards on the table. It seems to make him feel pressured or more avoidant. 

We are basically fooling around. It will be simpler if we are just FWB or short-term sex partners at first. I have known the term of situationship but experienced it this time. It is too heartbreaking. 

There are some different stages I cried for him.

: Emotionally connected but miss him so badly. I cried when reading a romance book cuz some plots are so similar to ours. I was certain I was being liked then. He showed enough affection and spent tons of time with me. Text every day and talk over the phone two times per week on average. 

: Unsecured period. I am not around him in person and maybe cannot provide sex function or intimacy needs. No clue about this. He even chose to play games and talked to me afterward. Dont like that we only talk to each other after his games or when he is about to sleep. I am not the thing to be in the middle. 

: Silent argument stage. I do not like heated arguments and cannot deal with his anger upfront. He is a spontaneous doer rather than a thinker like me. We are so different but try to reach a balance. His words have the ability to hurt me even though he said it already passed. Those harsh words stay with me. The reason we are arguing is always about the title, commitment, and future. 

My basic emotional needs are not satisfied. Therefore, I cannot help but keep bothering him. He does not want to commit things he cannot do or does not know how to do it. His point makes sense. 

I notice that he does not have enough confidence and determination. My willingness and determination are way higher than his. He does not think we will work out or he does not want to. 

That is the moment I want to leave, to exit, to not hold on to a silver lining the other person does not believe in.  

Block Unblock Block Unblock...

Surroundings and significant others have crystal eyes to see through this. They all foreseen the outcome and told me not to dedicate the whole me or put so much effort/ energy into this relationship. Throwing back to then- they may be correct. Life without him, to some extent, makes me less doubtful and more relieved.

I liked him before but stop liking him. " I love you." " It will pass."

Cutting someone off is always difficult and heartbreaking. Need some time to recover from this. 

Grateful to meet him- teaching me how to love him, learning to prioritize my needs, and knowing what matters to me. Loving someone still feels great and you can see a new you inside. It did enrich our lives and always understand ourselves better. 

I appreciate your existence in my life. But it is just the right time to let you go now. Let's not torture each other and keep some good memories. 

Pour vous, Cappy, B.

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