Sep 30, 2023 暗戀是一個人的兵荒馬亂 而我現在只想休兵 偃旗息鼓 To mourn the goddamn crush- bury them in the sand. The story ends itself unbelievably. It is fortunate to see him in person in this lifetime. When we meet up, I know it is the ENDING, an ideal moment to move forward. zigzag forward. I am sick of dealing with my turbulent feelings. Saying to myself it is enough. It is the time to let it go let it be there. Perhaps, the attachment feelings were found since Feb. Then, I was being tossed and turned occasionally. A one-month trip abroad did not ease my suffering. Talking to friends does not decrease the sadness too much either. I admitted my attachment after seven months. Yep, it might be a crush, or admire to someone. Currently, I simply want to stop my attachment, my fantasization, my projection, and my fixation falling into the spiral of sadness. Otherwise, I delayed the other options outside the door. Do you understand it?
